I cant face myself when I wake up and look inside the mirror. Im so afraid of defeat. And that is exactly what im facing. Please, Hold me now. I need to feel complete. I dont belong here and im not entirely sure that Im well. I am so ashamed of losing her. Ashamed of the pain I have caused her.

Its never been the way I have described it. And the tears? Its all the same in the end. And I find that I am weak in this shell. But I realize that unconsciously I am crawling out my shell, on this misty earth. Where blades of grass hold the sweet scent of morning dew. In this world where only she exists. A utopia of love. Once was, Now evaporated into Dust. Just like when A Daemon dies. It drifts away into eternity.

Just as they die, as will a piece of me...

Amastae,
Sam

It is the end as I know it. My Opace cycle has begun. But I do not fret, for now. I know it will sink into my mind and I will no longer have to suffer. My everyday schedule has taken a dramatic change. I no longer see her every day. I no longer make the human contact I use to. All my twisted thoughts free flow to everlasting memory. And one day I will weep for her pain. I will fight the tears with pretty smiles and lies about the time.

And now I sit here in half moon stance. Uncomfortable. Waited for a voice. That light I had so long ago. I will wait for that voice. The only thing to soothe me.

Amastae,
Sam

Today a new chapter to my life begins. I am no longer in the land of the dead, nor do I have Harpies in the air above me. I am content with my life as it is, and the people that are in it. And that person that I feel has back to me. Not the same, but just how I want it. This time there is no relationship to rip at my core or complicate this delicate situation.

So I give praise to my life, as it is.
Amastae,
Sam

Greetings all, for the second time. I have trurned for a purpose. To believe, to expand, to explore.

I will keep my life on an update for whoever wishes to read.

Call me Chel.... Your Oceanic,
Sam

Hello my name is shadowsoflyra. I'm new to elowel.